shirt from forever 21, makeup from sugar pill, heavenly naturals |
I'm going to show these people what you don't want them to see.Just another day for me. I spent most of the nights of this week not sleeping and just bumming and doing homework.
I'm going to show them a world without you.
A world without rules and controls, without borders or boundaries.
A world where anything is possible.
Where we go from there is a choice I leave to you.
~The Matrix (1999)
I've also decided for the past couple weeks to start working out and keeping a food diary. I feel like the emo-ness of keeping a food diary has always kept me from actually doing it, but at the way that I stress eat and the way that I avoid exercise, I think it needs to be done. While doing my make up this morning I was thinking to myself that I work so hard to make sure my eyes and face look nice but I don't seem to care about my body. I eat badly and in large portions or sometimes not at all, I never exercise and when I do I get so sore that it scares me from doing it again, I constantly have self esteem issues about my weight and have for a long time, and I have no self control. Of course, I have tried to diet and lose weight before but it was always to no avail. I can honestly say that I have never had a time when I lost a bunch of weight only to put it back, typically I have gained weight consistently and depressingly.
Anyways, with that decided I thought maybe I should compose a different blog about my food/exercise adventures. At first, I considered Tumblr, but then I realized that with Tumblr I get distracted way too easily and would more likely spend my time looking at photos than blogging. I also considered Twitter but that seemed way too public. Finally, I just settled on another blogger, one where I can put my food/exercise journal daily. I will bring it up soon when I figure out a name for it.
2 comments:
your makeup is so pretty... I hardly wear any. It's just daunting, and I'm always scared I'll look funny.
makeup is awesome. you should totally wear it more often. i adore it.
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